While the Original is sold ,a beutiful stretched canvas  reproduction along with a 11x14  canvas cropped close up ( seccond image ) is available  in drop down  menu.  
How much pain can a person have when facing life on life's terms for the first time? We can handle a lot. This represents my first month sober without any drugs, drink or substitute I had to feel for the first time. The world and everything about it, hurt.